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I AM FEELING VERY GUILTY!

For a long time I have not used EP, except for mail, and have neglected all of my friends that I was in contact with.  Today I looked at my Whiteboard and saw that people has been asking after me, so now I feel guilty. so to bring you all up to date and let you know that I am still around, here is the latest.

After my last blog which told of my kidney operation, from which I am fully recovered, I thought I was out of the woods, but no!   My surgeon said that the aorta in my stomach had swollen to such a size that there was a danger of it bursting and that would have been goodbye to me!

An  operation was planned for 25th November last year, but due to the fact that no sheaths and stents were available anywhere in the country, the op had to be postponed.  In the end it took place on 18th March this year.  It was done by keyhole surgery and took 5 and a half hours, a sheath was put around the aorta and a stent put in each groin.  I was home after 4 days. A month later an ultrasound showed that there was a very tiny leak by the aorta, but it seems that this does happen and sometimes clears up of its own accord.  I have to have another scan in October to see how things are, fingers crossed.

On the whole I feel fine except for a great lack of energy, but considering all that has happened, four major operations in 2 and a half years,  I suppose that will improve, I am just so impatient! 

So sorry everyone for my absence from EP, I promise to do better in future.


Kidney Operation Update

My operation to remove my left kidney was brought forward to the 18th.  That went well.

I came home yesterday afternoon, feel rather weak but glad to be home.  The hospital and nurses were very nice, can't say the same for the food though.   I was in surgery for 5 hours, I have extremely little pain, just a bit of soreness.  I have a lot of staples which have to be removed at the surgery next Friday.   For four days and nights I was totally demented and hallucinating.  In fact totally off my head.  I have been told that I was wandering up and down the wards, waking all the patients, trying to remove all my clothes and tubes, was held down by patients and nurses.  I was rude to everyone and talking absolute rubbish.   I did not know any of this, I felt in a happy place, the ward was festooned with garlands of flowers, beautiful pictures were on the walls and doors and kept changing,  Beautiful bunches of red ribbons were floating through the air which i tried to catch, people and things were reduced in size, people were like dwarves and came and peered over the end of my bed.   It was not until two days after the operation that I knew it had been done!  I had to be shown the scars!   When I had my breast cancer op I was given Tramadol,  this sent me on a sort of trip, like an LSD one I have been told, but nothing like the above.  So when I went in hospital for this op I told the nurses, anaesthetist and doctors not to give me any tramadol.     It now appears that I had been given this drug as well as morphine,  and goodness knows what else,I was loaded with it, goodness knows why because I was not in pain.  After a couple of days Jackie (daughter)and Charlotte (granddaughter) insisted all drugs were taken off me and it took me a couple of days to get back to normal.  They all thought I was senile dementia.   I am furious, but they are denying giving me the drug.  Jackie phoned a friend of mine who had worked with eminent Harley Street doctors and oncologists and was told that these two drugs had worked against each other, and one of the surgeons is going to write to my surgeon on my behalf.   Jackie spent hours, day and night, insisting the nurses bleep doctors and getting them to the ward to answer questions, she commandeered the computers at the nurses station and looked at all the results of every test I had, they were all normal.   A psychiatrist was sent to ask me the usual questions, he asked what year it is, from then on I answered all the questions that I knew he would ask before he even asked them!  He was right confused by me!  Anyway I was given a 100% mental state value!   The results of what was found in my kidney will not be known for three weeks, but when i go back for the results I will be raising merry hell.  After I had regained my senses I was treated with kid gloves and they were definitely trying to cover up for things.   So I am back to normal, fully compos menus.  I just feel very lacking in energy.   If anyone else has had such an experience then I would love to hear about it.

UPDATE

Last week I had an appointment with the heart specialist.  He ordered an immediate echocardiogram. 

Yesterday I received a letter from him, I was scared to open it as I r thought he had found something nasty and was calling me back in.  He has never written to me before after a test.

My problem was that I had a blocked artery and the blood was not circulasting properly, and the left chamber had shrunk.

He was perplexed because he said the artery was now unblocked, the blood was circulating well and the left chamber had grown back to normal size!  There were no abnormalities!

It seems a miracle has happened, I out it down to all the healing I have been receiving from all over the world, and the strict diet I have been on and the IP6 and curcumen I have been taking (info for that on the internet).

I feel elated at this news, I have to see the kidney surgeon today and am hoping for good news there too.  Fingers crossed.

It seems my angels have been working overtime!

 


UPDATE ON MY PREVIOUS BLOG

It was a great day yesterday, I completed the last day of my 20 days of radiotherapy, said goodbye at last to the torture chamber!  I was warned about loads of possible side effects but for some reason, except for a slight reddening of the skin, I had none of them.

So today I have a lovely day off at home.  Tomorrow I have to go for the horrid nuclear imaging scan on my kidneys as they think there is something nasty lurking in there, if that is so then the kidney will have to be removed.  However I have been on a diet for the past month, red meat was banned and I took IP6 and curcumen.   IF it has made no difference then all I can say is that I have done all that I could.

Wish me luck!

Ruth


REASON FOR MY LATEST ABSENCE FROM EP

  I came home from hospital yesterday after nearly three weeks.    I was due for radiotherapy on 25th Feb for 4 weeks, after the breast cancer operation told about in my previous blog, however - other things happened.  I was waiting in hospital for an appointment when all of a sudden a black veil formed over my left eye and I could not see for a few moments.  This happened a few more times during the week and my granddaughter and daughter took me to Moorfields A and E on Sunday 25th Jan.  They thought I had a blocked blood vessel or that I had had a minor stroke (TIA), however I was not affected in any way from it.  I was referred to Ealing hospital and saw a neurologist, who ordered an immediate neck scan and it was found that the main artery on the left side of my neck was 90% blocked and I was in danger of an imminent major stroke.   I went into hospital and the op was scheduled for four days time.  However - they did a scan of my stomach and kidneys and found that in my left kidney there is a large mass, which looks malignant, also there is a small aortic aneurism in my stomach.  The neck op was cancelled three times but took place two days ago on Tuesday, took five hours.    I was sent home the day after - yesterday, got a massive plaster all down one side of my neck, can't wash my hair and it is full of goodness knows what.  For the actual op I had to be awake for a lot of the time, because if they worked on the wrong part of the artery then I would have had a stroke.  Anyway the surgeon was very pleased with the results and said that if he had left it any longer then I would not be here today.   So radiotherapy now starts on the 9th for 4 weeks, the kidney op, which means it will have to be removed entirely, will be in about 6 weeks.   Am I a happy bunny?  No way!  I am waiting for the next thing to happen - perhaps my leg will fall off!  I could not contact people as the ward I was in I could not get a signal on my phone, and I was in a ward that was full of old people with dementia, and they treated me a lot of the time as though I was the same, which thoroughly annoyed me!!   I am now trying to wade through the 200 odd emails etc that are here on my computer, so thought a blog would reach some of the lovely people that have been wondering where I have been.

BACK IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING

I have been absent from EP for a lot of December, this is what happened to me.

On 1st December I had an operation to remove a cancerous breast lump, biopsies on the lymph nodes showed that the cancer had not spread and that it was all removed.  I was discharged from hospital a few days later.

Then on 11th December I had chest pains that would not go away, got really frightened so dialled 999 for an ambulance, which took me to hospital.  I was admitted and had every test under the sun.  The last one was last Friday at a very famous private hospital in London, for a nuclear scan.  The results showed I have a blocked artery and there was a scar on the bottom of my heart.

My consultant said that the scar indicated that I had had in the past a heart attack, probably in my sleep so I did not know about it!   It was decided that the breathlessness and any chest pains could be treated with medication.

So they let me out of hospital yesterday evening.  Whilst in there I even managed to contract that awful diarrhoea and sickness bug on the ward, and was put into isolation!

Anyway, although feeling a bit fragile I am now home and am going to my family tomorrow for Christmas.  All of this has happened in under a month and has left me in quite a whirl!  I had one big disappointment because on the 22nd I was due to go to Austria for the Christmas week, so had to cancel that holiday.  Never mind, there is always next year.

So that is the saga of why I have been missing from EP for quite a while and have not been answering messages.  I wish you all a Happy Christmas and a great New Year.

Ruth xxxx


CAT SCAN AND DOGS DINNER!

 


My Favourite picture of the Week

I wish I knew what the lion was thinking!


SUNDAY 27TH JULY

Phew! It has been so hot and humid for the past few days, everyone is wishing for a storm to clear the air.  My sitting rom does not get the sun all day yet it is already 74 degrees in there.  No wind so eve sitting in the garden does noit help0 to cool one down.  Very few homes in England do not have air conditioning, so I will now go and put the fan on and sit for a while to cool down.


SCARY


We have all woken up this morning with a scary feeling. The park right opposite our houses has been cordoned off both ends with police tape, and there are police stationed everywhere. There has evidently been a serious incident and we are just hoping that it is not yet another stabbing, so close to home.


SCARY


We have all woken up this morning with a scary feeling. The park right opposite our houses has been cordoned off both ends with police tape, and there are police stationed everywhere. There has evidently been a serious incident and we are just hoping that it is not yet another stabbing, so close to home.


ANIMALS AND BOATS AT HENLEY SATURDAY 19TH

On Saturday we went to Henley on Thames to take part in the Traditional Boats Rally.  It waas to celebrate the ships that went to Dunkirk to rescue the soldiers off the beaches.

We had an area allocated to us by the river for my granddaughter's and her fiance's animals and birds, most of them rescued animals.  Up at 6am, loading the two Shetland ponies, ducks, goats, sheep, tortoises, geese, chickens, rabbits, guiea pigs, an enormous turkey and a Frizzled chick and other chiickens into the trailer.

 

 

There was a massive sail past by over 500 boats, and the a parade of the Dunkirk boats.  How osme of them even made their way across the Channel I do not know! I spoke to a few of the WW2 veterans and the stories they had to tell were amazing.

There was a flypast arranged to celebrate the RAF's anniversay, a Vulcan bomber, spitfires,  Hurricanes and Lancaster bomber, which was going to drop poppy petals over the river.  Unfortunately the waather in Southampton was bad so they could not take off, it was a great disappointment to all.

All in all though, it was an amazing, and quite touching day.  Here are a few of the boats, which have all e loovingly restored and cared for:

 

 

 

Pail Daniels (the magician) and Debbie Magee came and chatted to us, he offered to do a disappearing act on our rabbits!

After setting up the pens the children and their parents started coming in, they were able to stroke, feed and hold the smaller animals and birds, and feed and groom the larger animals.   They all had a terrific time and the animals enjoyed all the attention. 

The most peculiar bird was the Polish Frizzled chicken and the turkey stomped around all day with all of his feathers puffed up, he was annoyed because his mate had not come with us.


FLYING HIGH

 
The moment came at last, time for my second flying lesson.  We arrived at the airfield, me - a bag of nerves.  I met my instructor James, the same one that I had 4 years ago, he is gorgeous.
 
He did the take off then uttered the awful words - "You have control!"  The plane did a little bounce as I took over but I soon got the hang of it again.  I saw lovely white fluffy clouds, I headed for them, wished I could snatch a piece of one, but once inside them they were just mist.

 

 

 
 

 

 
The countryside looked magical, all those little patchwork fields, and the long line of traffic on the motorway seemed to stretch for miles.  I would have loved to have flown over my house but as I headed for it James said "turn right", otherwise we would have been in Luton airport air space!
 
I managed to take some photos by just using the controls with one hand, it was all so easy.  I felt like I was a bird flying up there in the blue.  We flew at 3,000 ft and were going at over 200 miles an hour, although we seemed to be just hovering, a very weird sensation.
 
All too soon the lesson was over, never did an hour speed by so fast.  I even managed to land the little plane, although it was with a little hop, skip and jump!
 
My 74th birthday has been very special, my family did a makeover on my front and back gardens, and bought new garden furniture too, we then ended the day with a Chinese meal, lovely sweet and sour chicken balls for me.  I have eaten so much cake and chocolates, I think I will explode!  The cherry brandy, etc., went down well too.
 
 

Watch out - here she comes again!


HENLEY ON THAMES, SATURDAY 19TH JULY

This is where I will be on Saturday 19th, with my granddaughter, fiance and their mobile farm, with Shetland ponies, donkeys, sheep, goats etc.. If anyone is near Henley on that day then do come and say hello.
 
Go to website www.tradboatrally.com.  
  
The Battle of Britain Memorial Flight will fly over the Rally during the parade of Dunkirk Little Ships on the Saturday. You will see famous planes from World War II - the Spitfire & Hurricane fighters and the Lancaster Bomber . Not to be missed! (Visit their website at www.bbmf.co.uk) (Disclaimer: may be cancelled if weather bad).
 

Tom TitThe Rally weekend is one that should not be missed by anyone who has an interest in the traditions of bygone years, or who is a lover of boats and boating of any sort. There a very full programme of events both on the water and on the riverbank. 
 

Throughout the weekend there will be continuous parades of all the many different classes of boats, including the " Association of Dunkirk Little Ships " (See photo left of "Tom Tit", an ADLS member) and the many beautiful craft of the Thames Vintage Boat Club . When not out on the water, all the craft will be moored to the bank, and provide a spectacular sight as you stroll along the river bank. At the discretion of the owners, you may be invited aboard to look over the craft, or even taken for a cruise . 

On Saturday the Rally opens at 9 am, with the sail-pasts and the Boat Jumble starting around 10 am, followed by a busy programme continuing until midnight, for those who wish to stay for the Illuminated Parade and for the dance in the Beer Tent (to a live band). 

On Sunday the opening time is again 9 am, but the Rally closing ceremony takes place at 6 pm following the presentation of all the Trophies . We provide an excellent printed souvenir programme, packed with information,  which can be purchased at the gate or at the Registration Tent (near the commentators tent) for a small fee. To get a complete picture of what the Thames Traditional Boat Rally consists of, browse the excellent Photo Galleries for a visual feast.
 
Every year there is a large display of Vintage and Classic Cars provided by the Bean Car Club and others, laid out along the middle field in great splendor..
 

 Also we are proud to host the Solent Veteran Cycle Club each year, with a fine collection of Vintage Bicycles, with everything from tricycles (see photo left) to penny-farthings. At intervals, the club members will ride them in convoy (and traditional costume) up and down the bankside.



 


Nervous - and excited too

I have just got a letter, it contains confirmation of what I will be doing on my 74th birthday next Wednesday.


In the letter is a voucher for my second flying lesson (my first one was on my 70th).  My family lovingly decided I should repeat the experience, especially as whenever they asked what present I wanted I coauld not think of anything.


So for a week now I will be a mixture of emotions nervous, excited, sleepless, anxious, scared, and happy!  Will I remember what to do? Will I have the same handsome pilot (I hope so)! Must remember to change the batteries in my camera. 


Whoopee! Yippee!  Dive for cover everyone!


Trying!

 


Tuesday 1st July

My goodness, I ache this morning! But I am not complaining because it is due to the wonderful day I had yesterday.


I went with my daughter, granddaughter and her fiance to Harwich in ~Essex to see my other three grandchildren (their mother died just over two years ago), they have just moved into a new house, a lovely country style cottage.  My 16 yeaqr old grandson has chosen the huge attic room, a real batchelor's pad, with lovely views over the harbour.


We went to the beach and had a great barbecue, it was very hot  with a lovely breeze, this time I remembered to take my sun cream so I am not burning this morning.  The beach was deserted the only drawback was the rather tricky path to get to it, it is a favourite retreat of my grandchildren, they originally found it by exploring down a narrow country lane.


Back down to earth today, I missed doing my weekly shopping yesterday so have to do it today instead, it is going to be very hot today so the forecasters say, and humid too.  I am off to drag my aching bones around Tesco now.


Wednesday 25th June


Got up at 4.15am thi monring, the bug has left me with awful catarrh and a rotten cough and that woke me up.  So I thought a hot cup of tea or two and EP might help.


Lots of emails to answer and some friends had sent me some jokes, here are a few of the clean ones! 


An elderly couple, Margaret and Bert, moved to Texas. Bert had always wanted a pair of authentic cowboy boots, so, seeing some on sale, he bought them and wore them home.



Walking proudly, he sauntered into the kitchen and said to his wife, "Notice anything different about me?"



Margaret looked him over. "Nope."



Frustrated, Bert stormed off into the bathroom, undressed and walked back into the kitchen completely naked except for the boots.



Again he asked Margaret, a little louder this time, "Notice anything different NOW?"



Margaret looked up and exclaimed, "Bert, what's different? It's hanging down today, it was hanging down yesterday, and it'll be hanging down again tomorrow!"



Furious, Bert yelled, "And do you know why it's hanging down, Margaret?"



"Nope", she replied.



"It's hanging down, because it's looking at my new boots"



Without changing her expression, Margaret replied, "Shoulda bought a hat, Bert. Shoulda bought a hat."

 




> There was a man who had worked all his life, had saved all of his money, and was a real miser when it came to his money.

>

> Just before he died, he said to his wife...'When I die, I want you to take all my money and put it in the casket with me. I want to take my money to the afterlife with me.'

>

> And so he got his wife to promise him, with all of her heart, that when he died, she would put all of the money into the casket with him.

>

> Well, he died. He was stretched out in the casket, his wife was sitting there - dressed in black, and her friend was sitting next to her. When they finished the ceremony, and just before the undertakers got ready to close the casket, the wife said,

>

> 'Wait just a moment!'

> She had a small metal box with her; she came over with the box and put it in the casket. Then the undertakers locked the casket down and they rolled it away. So her friend said,

>

> 'Girl, I know you were not foolish enough to put all that money in there with your husband.'

>

> The loyal wife replied, 'Listen, I'm a Christian; I cannot go back on my word. I promised him that I was going to put that money into the casket with him.'

> You mean to tell me you put that money in the casket with him!?!?!?'

> 'I sure did,' said the wife. 'I got it all together, put it into my account, and wrote him a check.... If he can cash it, then he can spend it.'


The Human Race




A little girl asked her mother, 'How did the human race appear?'



The mother answered, 'God made Adam and Eve and they had children and so

was all mankind made.' Two days later the girl asked her father the same

question.



The father answered, 'Many years ago there were monkeys from which the

human race evolved.'



The confused girl returned to her mother and said, 'Mom, how is it possible

that you told me the human race was created by God, and Dad said they

developed from monkeys?'

>

The mother answered, 'Well, dear, it is very simple. I told you about my

side of the family and your father told you about his.'



 


The sun has not got out of bed yet, it is very cloudy, I hope it does not get too hot as I have a lot of weeding to do in the front garden.  It is very quiet here at the moment, there is no one about so I am sitting here talking to myself, all my EP friends seem to be in bed too, so I have just told myself to go and get another cup of tea, so here goes.......................


 


 



Friday 20th June - Damn it, I am Sick and freezing

I am freezing cold, my temperature is 101 degrees, my throat is swollen and sore and my head is aching.  Someone has given me a bug, I wish I knew who it was so I could give it back to them! 


So very soon I am going to snuggle under my duvet, take a cup of hot lemon, honey and whisky with me, and watch TV in bed.


If there are any bug exterminators out there then shoot my way please!


Thursday 19th June

A beautiful sunny day in spite of the gloomy weather forecast.  I have spent a few hours here on EP today, have picked random stories, answered my mail, sent cards and messages.


I was going to write another story, but then, decided against it.  Over the past couple of days I have written 7 stories, had 189 views and got 10 comments.  So I am asking myself - if no one can be bothered to make any comment, then why bother to write anything.? I am getting tired of this one sided effort.  I know that I am not the only one that feels this way.


I think I will log off now and go and watch TV.


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Previous Posts
I AM FEELING VERY GUILTY!, posted May 31st, 2011, 3 comments
Kidney Operation Update, posted June 27th, 2009, 1 comment
UPDATE, posted May 21st, 2009, 5 comments
UPDATE ON MY PREVIOUS BLOG, posted April 8th, 2009, 1 comment
REASON FOR MY LATEST ABSENCE FROM EP, posted February 26th, 2009, 6 comments
BACK IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING, posted December 23rd, 2008, 9 comments
CAT SCAN AND DOGS DINNER!, posted August 24th, 2008, 1 comment
My Favourite picture of the Week, posted August 21st, 2008
SUNDAY 27TH JULY, posted July 27th, 2008, 1 comment
SCARY, posted July 21st, 2008, 4 comments
SCARY, posted July 21st, 2008
ANIMALS AND BOATS AT HENLEY SATURDAY 19TH, posted July 20th, 2008, 5 comments
FLYING HIGH, posted July 16th, 2008, 12 comments
HENLEY ON THAMES, SATURDAY 19TH JULY, posted July 15th, 2008, 5 comments
Nervous - and excited too, posted July 9th, 2008, 3 comments
Trying!, posted July 2nd, 2008, 5 comments
Tuesday 1st July, posted July 1st, 2008, 3 comments
Wednesday 25th June, posted June 25th, 2008, 4 comments
Friday 20th June - Damn it, I am Sick and freezing, posted June 20th, 2008, 7 comments
Thursday 19th June, posted June 19th, 2008, 6 comments
Sunday 15th June, posted June 15th, 2008, 1 comment
My Absence, posted June 8th, 2008, 4 comments
9pm Monday 2nd June, posted June 2nd, 2008, 6 comments
Saturday 17th May, posted May 17th, 2008, 7 comments
Sunday 11th May, posted May 11th, 2008
Friday 9th May, posted May 9th, 2008
Thursday 8th May, posted May 8th, 2008
Monday 5th May - Bank Holiday, posted May 5th, 2008, 1 comment
Sunday 4th April, posted May 4th, 2008, 1 comment
Saturday 3rd May, posted May 3rd, 2008
Thursday 1st May, posted May 1st, 2008, 2 comments
Wednesday 30th April 8.15am, posted April 30th, 2008, 1 comment
Sunday 27th April, posted April 27th, 2008, 8 comments
Saturday 26th April , 8.30am, posted April 26th, 2008, 2 comments
Saturday 19th April, posted April 19th, 2008, 3 comments
Friday 18th April, posted April 18th, 2008, 12 comments
Thursday 17th April, posted April 17th, 2008
Wednesday 9th April, posted April 9th, 2008, 1 comment
Tuesday 8th April, posted April 8th, 2008
6th April re. Points and Gifts, posted April 7th, 2008
Monday 7th April, posted April 7th, 2008
No Cigs!, posted April 6th, 2008, 8 comments
10.50am 6th April, posted April 6th, 2008
Sunday 6th April, posted April 6th, 2008, 2 comments
Saturday 5th April, posted April 5th, 2008
Friday 4th, posted April 4th, 2008
friday 4th April, posted April 4th, 2008
friday 4th april 2008, posted April 4th, 2008

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